To lie in the mud first in childhood and later, eternally                                            

To watch a former love grow old from behind a dog's Instagram account

To buy the bottle for its label and laugh at the first sip         

To divorce your pain from your personality and find that nothing remains

To speak kindly to yourself (but only out of spite)

To manage expectations and still say, I love you

To envision a future held by arms merely reaching for the next morning

To fear the intuition you once fought to understand

To learn new terminology for your experiences and wish the world had fewer words

To fall asleep entwined and yearn for infinite language