Happy birthday

Happy birthday to both
my broken ankles
Happy birthday to me
Sycophantic mother on speed
who toes the faintest line
I do everything right
I learn the names of plants
I don’t care about my birthday
I win the lottery every day
except the days my numbers
are not pulled

Fuck you

Rotting pumpkin headed
Victorian era child
Dropped colorblind in charity
fecal matter migrant mart
Forced to make an outfit
from what you remember
Covert addict
Covert abuser
Grandiose coward
Imagine you have the courage
to tell the other weird girl
not to come to school tomorrow

All of nothing

Tip one back
Put the house
in the microwave
I Invented moving
in milky shadow
Come over
live for weeks on me
How erased are you
How aware of life
of mercy
of unknown vectors
Disable deactivate dispose
Pray to be more refined
Operate in the confines
of my refinement
Operate in the confines
of my object

In her too

I am holding onto all that is mundane
Is it jail cuisine
Is it the thought of the thought
of putting a gun in my mouth
My name is a healthy American woman, American woman
Fast life history strategist
Loving, goofy
Culture of debased filth
Amen