as in leather / as in lace / as in the bouquet of flowers no one / ever gave me / the meadow / the gingham / the picnic / i never / got / the half a dozen / wedding dresses i wore in my mental / pictures of the placid ends / the ends / themselves / their own kind of reverse gluttony / as in the rib meat / you were happy / to devour / without sharing / any of yourself / as in the names / you gave our children / as in our flood / our drought / our landslide / as in the things i threw / away / the roses each / from other people / i kept / as in the backyard bed of weeds / rampant and rooted among / rats’  burrows / as if / to say how dare you / think i don’t belong here / as in / the way i thought / we’d grow / but you checked out / a book on deadheading / as in the first time / i finished / without thinking / of you / as in the pleasure / of sowing seeds with someone / else