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COLGATE

2019-2020
OLD TOOTHBRUSH
Hardened toothpaste and faint blood
7 1/2 by 1/2 in.

Estimate Description: http://www.sothebys.com/content/dam/default/lotSymbols/symb_DoubleDagger.gif
.14 cents-.22 cents
USA
LOT SOLD PASS
(Hammer Price with Buyer's Premium)

Provenance

Dr. Zeffo’s office, 57th street, New York, New York, 2019

Description

Stan acquired the toothbrush in 2019. The blue pattern is typical of this period of toothbrushes. He came home from the dentist with one of those little blue goodie bags, also containing oral rinse for sores. He hadn’t been to the dentist for five years and had no cavities and a mouth full of sores. For two months beforehand, he’d stopped brushing his teeth with me at night. I thought he was ashamed. But even afterward, when the only residue in the sink was frothy toothpaste, Stan kept the door closed. I got him a new toothbrush eventually—the handle of the old one was caked with spitty blood (see Lot 31, NEW TOOTHBRUSH). He never got around to using it.

Exhibited

Chicago, Illinois, Best Western Bathroom Sink, 2019

New York, New York Facebook Picture no.
10151628317594155.1073741825.61560924,
2019, illustrated in color in the catalogue

Bathroom Sink, Park Slope, Brooklyn, New York, 2019-2020

 

2

UNKNOWN MENUISIER

Late Twentieth Century, American
CHAIR FROM STREET
Wood, leather, and mold
35 by 35 in.

Estimate Description: http://www.sothebys.com/content/dam/default/lotSymbols/symb_DoubleDagger.gif
30 dollars-50 dollars
USA
LOT SOLD  26 dollars
(Hammer Price with Buyer's Premium)

Provenance

Street Corner, Gowanus, Brooklyn, 2013

Description

This piece was acquired by Stan and his ex. They found it near the Gowanus Canal. It has a decent size and a crack in the leather cushion. Most likely, they are the only ones who ever had sex on it. Any bedbugs are supposedly long-gone. I have sat in it three times. The first was out of drunkenness. The second was when we moved to Park Slope and Stan made me sit in the back of the truck with all the clattering since he had done most of the lifting. It’s a heavy chair. I don’t know how his ex was able to carry half of it for nine long blocks. He is so dancy. Stan left the chair behind when he moved out to move in with the very same lean, dancy man. The third time I sat in it, all I was trying to do was get my magazine out of the wastebasket.

Exhibited

Street Corner, Gowanus, Brooklyn, 2013

Living Room, Carroll Gardens, Brooklyn, New York, 2013-2018

Living Room, Park Slope, Brooklyn, New York, 2019-2020

 

3

IKEA

2014
WASTEBASKET
Flimsy Metal
9 7/8 by 11 3/4 in.

Estimate Description: http://www.sothebys.com/content/dam/default/lotSymbols/symb_DoubleDagger.gif
Six dollars
USA
LOT SOLD PASS
(Hammer Price with Buyer's Premium)

Provenance

IKEA, New York, New York, 2014

Description

Stan always threw things away when he was done, even if I might still want them—half eaten desserts, magazines, paperback novels. I saw my Wired curled in the lot, not remotely where it should have been, so I reached for it. That’s all. When I opened the Wired, there it was—wedged between pages like a bookmark.

Exhibited

On my side of the bed, closer to the door, Brooklyn, New York, 2020

Kicked over onto the ground, contents spilled out, Brooklyn, New York, 2020

 

4

STAN

2018-2020
LOVE LETTERS
Printer Paper
18.8 by 13.4 by 4.2 inches

Estimate Description: http://www.sothebys.com/content/dam/default/lotSymbols/symb_DoubleDagger.gif
LOT WITHDRAWN
USA
LOT WITHDRAWN

Provenance

Stan when he still loved me, 2018-?

Description

No, actually, I don’t want to sell these. I don’t care. I know I should get rid of them, should stop reading them. I know. But I’m not going to do it.

Exhibited

Back and forth between wastebasket (see lot 3, WASTEBASKET) and my bedside table, Brooklyn, 2020

 

5

SONY

2020
PlayStation 5 + maybe some games?
Electronic
18.8 by 13.4 by 4.2 inches

Estimate Description: http://www.sothebys.com/content/dam/default/lotSymbols/symb_DoubleDagger.gif
.1 cent
USA
LOT SOLD 400 dollars
(Hammer Price with Buyer's Premium)

Provenance

Gamestop, Brooklyn, New York, 2020

Description

He was so excited when he preordered the PlayStation 5. I’m surprised that he didn’t think to change the mailing address. I’ve been waiting for him to get in touch with me about it, to claim it for himself, and the worst thing is that I still want him to. I haven’t opened the box or anything. I think there’s some games in it too? When I shake it, it rattles. I don’t want it, even though I read online that it plays Blu-Ray and he left behind a few Criterion Collection discs that I’ve been meaning to watch.

Exhibited

Various “casual spots” around my apartment, Brooklyn, New York, 2020

 

6

TROJAN

2020
Condom Wrapper
Foil
2.1 by 2.1 in

Estimate Description: http://www.sothebys.com/content/dam/default/lotSymbols/symb_DoubleDagger.gif
.1 cent
USA
LOT SOLD PASS
(Hammer Price with Buyer's Premium)

Provenance

Bottom of bedroom wastebasket, Brooklyn, New York, 2020

Description

I don’t know what the worst part is: that it was with him; that it was in our bed, the one we bought together at Ikea and built together while we kissed over the main beam; that I had made the bed with my childhood sheets; that he didn’t even care enough to really try to hide the wrapper; that it was inside my Wired; that he could rarely get it up for me for months and that I thought it had something to do with him; that when I showed the lot to him he said, “oh that” and didn’t look surprised; that I didn’t even work up the capacity to kick him out that night; that he slept on the moldy chair so cozily; that I lay awake thinking that he was considerate for leaving the condom, since at least he wasn’t risking my health; that in the morning he was gone; that I haven’t even seen him since; that I have to move, sell the bed, and get rid of my childhood sheets. That it was with him.

Exhibited

On floor of bedroom, Brooklyn, New York, 2020

Bottom of bedroom wastebasket, Brooklyn, New York, 2020

In my shaking hand, Brooklyn, New York, 2020

 

7

TIME

2016-2020
FOUR AND A HALF YEARS
Me
63 by 28 in

Estimate Description: http://www.sothebys.com/content/dam/default/lotSymbols/symb_DoubleDagger.gif
?
USA
LOT SOLD PASS
(Hammer Price with Buyer's Premium)

Provenance

A bar in 2016: a tall man came up to me and asked what I was reading, and how I wanted to kiss him.

Description

I stopped seeing my friends as much when I was with him. I rarely ate alone. I read less and I watched fewer movies. I stopped going to the gym as much. I stopped biking. I don’t know that my body will so easily change way back, or my mind. I worry that I’ll look back and think that he had the best version of me.

Exhibited

Everywhere I was, everywhere I wrote, everything I thought, everyone else I could have loved, 2016-2020

With Stan, 2016–2020