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August 19, 2021

Edna

Todd Dillard

My daughter is bored so I tell her silverfish
are neither silver nor a fish, but a spoon-dull insect
that loves kitchens bathrooms the mouths of children.
Silverfish! Silverfish! she squeals, the word
peeling from her lips and crawling down her legs.
She watches me knead the day’s dough
and asks if Kleenex are used to clean necks.
The TV says a crane collapsed off 34th and
she wants to know if it's because the crane was thirsty.
Some afternoons we visit the neighborhood pool and
even though she can barely swim my daughter isn't afraid.
She's so unafraid it makes me afraid. She loves it
when I pick her up and throw her as far away as possible.
She loves to paddle back and scream Again! Again!
But she loves it most when I swim away as fast as I can,
when my back becomes a shore she’s trying to reach.
My daughter's named the pool Edna. Sometimes
Edna helps her reach me. When it's time to go
my daughter says "See you soon, Edna."
Every day I am terrified in new ways.